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Out of Date!

2010-07-27T20:21:00.013-04:00

I've been informed that my blog needed a major update...so here it goes! The only major update is my trip to Europe that I took in March, which was fan-tabulous! So...here are some pictures from my trip to London and Rome! Enjoy!

Friday the 13th!

2009-11-13T22:37:00.002-05:00

Okay, so my post has nothing to do with it being Friday the 13th..but I figured that would work as the title.

What's been going on in my life...hmmm...work is work. It's actually going pretty well, which I'm excited about. I'm working on some things for the holidays..so busy, busy, busy. I went to Virginia Beach to visit my friends in the beginning of October. That was super fun! And now christmas is a month and a half away...I still need to get that all figured out.

But...super exciting news! - I'm going to Europe in March! My roommate and I are taking a trip to England and then Italy....I'm so extremely excited about it.

Well...I guess I'll come back later and update.

.destiny

Nostalgia

2009-09-06T20:12:00.003-04:00

Nostalgia (n): a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time

I've always found nostalgia to be one of the most interesting concepts. Lately I've been thinking a lot about college and I suppose you could say "the time before adulthood set in." I tend to reminisce too much. I have started to question things, wondering if I should've done this or should've done that. I've debated going back for Graduate School over the past year - I've even been accepted, but haven't been able to get my situation together to go. The whole real world schedule of things is...hmmm...interesting. I'm trying to situate it out and get everything together and figure out my future..and slowly, but surely...things are starting to piece together..somewhat. I don't know what this rambling is all about anymore...but hey...to each their own, I suppose.

.d

Bringing This Up To Date

2009-08-30T09:09:00.001-04:00

So...this month has been pretty busy! I moved out of my parents house and into an apartment with one of my friends - that is great! I love having my own space and more freedom, now I just have more bills! But, yeah....so it's been pretty crazy on my end. I've felt like I've been going, going, going...so I enjoy my relaxation a little more right now. Also, in thenext month we have a couple big things going on at work, so busy, busy there as well. It's crazy!

But..now I gotta get ready for church...holla!

.destiny

That's all I have to say about that!

2009-07-28T19:59:00.005-04:00

I feel like I have not been utilizing my blog to it's fullest capacity!

So, what's been going on, you may ask?! Not a whole lot. I have been looking for an apartment for a long time and man, am I struggling. I just can't understand how people can charge rent so high in this area, it is truly crazy! So..yeah that's where that's at.

I went to Charleston, SC for training for week last week - a whole week away :-) - super fun! I loved it and I met some amazing people, as well as, saw some good sites...including this:

and this...

Other than that - I've just been trying to get myself motivated (aside from the weight gain) to get off of my lazy behind and start excercising...I suppose we'll see how that works out for me!

.d

Current Shout-Outs

2009-07-02T21:48:00.005-04:00

These are my current things-I-appreciate:

+ Jason Boyett and his ability to supply my pockets' need for guides!

Check out his blog here!

+ Catherine Claire Larson's amazing book "As We Forgive"

Learn more about Catherine here!

+ Francis Chan's "Crazy Love"

Check out his site here!

There are plenty of other things I appreciate now...but these are the few I wanted to acknowledge...check them out...let me know what you think...we'll discuss...we'll have good times and that's always great!

This is Great!

2009-06-06T09:41:00.001-04:00

I saw this a couple years ago and thought it was wonderful! Enjoy!

"Sunshine, sunshine"

2009-06-03T17:54:00.003-04:00

Happy Summer Everyone!

'Tis beautiful outside! Well, at times. Right now it's actually raining and a little ugh~! Anyways, I'm excited though about the summer months, looking forward to some fun in the sun...maybe.

I recently went to the beach and got to visit with some of my, oh so wonderful, friends...good times!

Other than my vacation and visiting my friends, it's just been work, work, work for me!

I recently have been reading a good bit of bits, 2 of which were Pocket Guide to Adulthood and Pocket Guide to the Bible. Both are recommended reads...highly so! I've also gotten excited about thinking about all the adult decisions I've been making, along the lines of retirement and savings. I feel so mature!

Alright people, I'm bored and you probably are, as well! So...later!

Blast From the Past - Via 2004

2009-05-09T22:02:00.001-04:00

"I cry out...for one more this piercing pain shoots straight to the core my soul is lieing at Your feet my heart is empty and still searching for who I seek I yearn for the pain, there's comfort within I long for the brokenness that only You can mend This body, this weakness, this cannot be endured my heart cries out for just one more I cannot move, my limbs are heavy, my heart is weak my brokenness that you have given me, the comfort I seek I feel no more, my body removed, your grace has covered my heart renewed. one more touch I cried again till I realized Your touch never ceased within. Your comfort, Your love, Your wonderful grace, this pain, this brokenness, this is your place. You've claimed it as your own. I am no longer alone."

Destiny-Ology

2009-04-29T19:11:00.002-04:00

Yet another random survey is circulating on Facebook (yeah, I love 'em as time-wasters just like everyone else), so here are my oh-so-riveting answers for everything "ology."

* FOODOLOGY*

What is your salad dressing of choice? - It depends, but I really like balsamic vinaigrette.

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? - Ooooh..Food...ummm..probably Olive Garden or Red Lobster, although The Cheesecake Factory is moving up the ladder!

What food could you eat everyday for two weeks and not get sick of? - Special K Cereal, Wheat Thins w/Laughing Cow Cheese, Subway, or baby corn (but not all together)...because I've done it before...well not the baby corn, but I love that stuff!

What are your pizza toppings of choice? - Pineapple (yum), I also like onions, and tomatoes...yum!!

Chocolate or Vanilla? - Definitely chocolate

* TECHNOLOGY *

How many televisions are in your house? - Six

Do you have a laptop? - Yes, but it's kind of sketchy sometimes!

How about a desktop? - Oh yes, it's so much better!

How many cell phones do you own? - Does anyone really need more than one?

* BIOLOGY*

Are you right handed or left handed? - Righty

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? - Just my wisdom teeth

What is the last heavy item you lifted? - The 32 individual boxes that weighed 40 lbs each...occupational hazard with the newsletters!

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? - Only when I got my wisdom teeth removed!

* TRIVIA-OLOGY*

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? - Absolutely not!

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? - I wouldn't want to, I like my name!

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? - It would depend on the duration of time that the entire bottle had to be consumed!

* DUMBOLOGY*

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? - I'm not sure, I can only think of 2 that I really wear.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? - Well, there was that one time...nah just kidding, it's been a couple years since my last speeding ticket!

Last person you talked to? - My mom.

* FAVORITE-OLOGY*

Season? - Spring or Fall

Holiday? - Christmas—yes, completely unoriginal, but true

Day of the week? - Saturday

Month? - Either April for my birthday or December for Christmas, it's a toss-up!

* CURRENTOLOGY*

Missing anyone? - Always

Mood? - Oh, I'm living the dream!

What are you listening to? - The music in Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Watching? - See "What Are You Listening to?"

* RANDOMOLOGY*

First place you went this morning? - Gas station

What's the last movie you saw? - In the theatre - "17 Again" , at home - "Just Like Heaven" (excluding the current background noise of HPOP)

Do you smile? - Depends on who I'm talking to ;-)

Do you always answer your phone? - Yes, unless I don't want to talk to you.

You get a text message at 4 a.m. Who is it? - No one is crazy enough to text me in the middle of my REM cycle!

If you could change your eye color what would it be? - I like mine, but I'd probably put more blue in the green.

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? - I don't really go to a Sonic!

Do you own a digital camera? - Yes! Love it.

Have you ever had a pet fish? - Yes, I have—R.I.P. all of you!

What's on your wish list for your birthday? - Lose weight!

Can you do pushups? - No!

Can you do a chin up? - Better than a push-up!

Does the future make you nervous or excited? - Both!

Do you have any saved texts? - Yes, I love my friends!

Ever been in a car wreck? - No, thank God!

Do you have an accent? - Lately I have actually had a lot of comments made to me about my WV accent.

Plans tonight? - American Idol - Wa-hoo!

Have you ever been given roses? - Not roses.

Current hate right now? - "Don't hate, you don't wanna put that out there".....

Met someone who changed your life? - A couple people

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? - Yes, I probably would.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? - That would be a no.

Do you have any tattoos/ piercings? - Ear piercing and a tattoo on my back.

Does anyone love you? - Yes :-)

What songs do you sing in the shower? - depends on what's stuck in my head in the morning...right now I got "Freebird" stuck in my head.

Do you like to cuddle? - I've been told so!

Have you held hands with anyone today? - Nope.

Who was the last person you took a picture of? - My nephew at Easter!

What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? - whatever my family listened to.

Are most of the friends in your life new or old? - a healthy mix

Do you like pulpy orange juice? - Not at all!

Have you ever ridden an elephant? - Nope, can't say that I have.

Do you like to play Scrabble? - I love Scrabble

If you could have any superpower, what would it be? - Ya know I'd kind of like to read people's minds...but then again, that could be more scarier than fun!

When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? - a long time!

What were you doing at midnight last night? - sleeping, remember...you don't mess with the REM cycle!

Top 10 "Best Acted Characters" in my Movie Collection

2009-04-28T19:34:00.004-04:00

Okay, so I was recently watching one of the below mentioned films and realized how wonderful the actor is at portraying the character - so, I compiled a list of the Top 10 "Best Acted Characters" within my personal Movie Collection.

10. Sandra Bullock as Lucy Moderatz in While You Were Sleeping

9. Colin Firth as Jamie Bennett in Love Actually

8. Joaquin Phoenix as Johnny Cash in Walk the Line

7. Russell Crowe as Maximus Decimus Meridius in Gladiator

6. Tom Hanks as Forrest Gump in Forrest Gump

5. James McAvoy as Tom Lefroy in Becoming Jane

4. Jim Caviezel as Edmond Dantes in The Count of Monte Cristo

3. Matthew McConaughey as Jake Brigance in A Time to Kill

2. Ben Foster as Charlie Prince in 3:10 to Yuma

1. Heath Ledger as The Joker in The Dark Knight

So there ya go people...some of the greatest..in my personal opinion.

Let me know what you think the best are? Any of these? Or others?

Psalm 139

2009-04-27T19:19:00.002-04:00

1984 - A List of a Year!

2009-04-07T21:27:00.004-04:00

I decided to do a Top 10 List! I like lists...they're fun!

Anyways, after watching American Idol I got the inspiration to do a Top 10 List for the Year I was born: 1984! Basically, just interesting fun-facts from an amazing year! :-)

1. January 24 - The Macintosh is introduced! Thank you Jef Raskin!
2. February 3 - The first live birth from an embryo transfer is announced.
3. April 6 - Terms of Endearment wins Best Picture at the 56th Academy Awards.
4. May 8 - The longest game in Major League Baseball begins between the Milwaukee Brewers and Chicago White Sox. (The game is played over 2 days - lasting 22 innings - a total time of 8 hrs. and 6 min.)
5. July 18 - Beverly Lynn Burns becomes the first woman Boeing 747 captain in the world.
6. July 23 - Vanessa Lynn Williams becomes the first Miss America to resign when she surrenders her crown, after nude photos of her appear in "Penthouse" magazine.
7. August 11 - Then-President Ronald Reagan, during a voice check for a radio broadcast remarks, "My fellow Americans, I'm pleased to tell you today that I've signed legislation that will outlaw Russia forever. We begin bombing in five minutes".
8. November 6 - U.S. presidential election, 1984: Ronald Reagan defeats Walter F. Mondale with 59% of the popular vote, the highest since Richard Nixon's 61% victory in 1972. Reagan carries 49 states in the electoral college; Mondale wins only his home state of Minnesota by a mere 3,761 vote margin and the District of Columbia.
9. December 22 - Four African-American youths (Barry Allen, Troy Canty, James Ramseur, and Darrell Cabey) board an express train in The Bronx borough of New York City. They attempt to rob Bernhard Goetz, who shoots them. The event starts a national debate about urban crime, which is a plague in 1980s America.
10. Undated - Crack, a smokeable form of cocaine, is first introduced into the Los Angeles area and soon spreads across the United States in what becomes known as the Crack Epidemic.

(*all facts were found using wikipedia.org - 1984*)

Now it's your turn - do the same thing on your blog or in the comments section!

I'm Still Here!

2009-03-31T21:31:00.002-04:00

I just wanted to let you all know I am still here. I've been busy with alot of trivial crap and somewhat sick lately, so I haven't been up to splurging thoughts, inspirations, and mindless ramblings. I'm hoping to get back on track soon!

Hope you are all doing wonderful!

catch ya on the flipside.

.destiny

Websites of Interest!

2009-03-05T20:41:00.005-05:00

Okay, so if you are my friend on Facebook you will have noticed that I was doing a "Website of Interest" thing in my status line. So what I decided to do is move my websites of interest into my blog for all you wonderful people to enjoy! The disclaimer I must first make is that I do not necessarily endorse any of the below mentioned websites; however, I do find them interesting...obviously. So I hope you can find something wonderful in each and every one of them!

- Justin McRoberts Blog
---I have to make the statement that Justin McRoberts is one of my ultimate favorite singers..if you have not had the pleasure of hearing his music, you need to check it out! Ahmazing!

- Brian McClaren
---To be honest with you I have not fully sought after the theology/philosophy/doctrine and all sorts of Brian McLaren's life, but I was referred to his blog from fellow blogger. I found McLaren to be very interesting and intriguing.

- Woot.com
---This is a fun site some neat day to day deals! Check this out!

- Red Envelope Day
---This is excellent..and I do endorse...join me!

- The Church of No People
---Fellow blogger Matt's wonderful bit of the world wide interweb...check it out, this guy is a very interesting and entertaining blogger...I definitely recommend.

- Internet Movie Database
---There is no way that I can not give props to the Internet Movie Database, this is my saving grace in movie emergencies! :-) If you know my love of movies..you understand!

- Swaptree
---This is an excellent place to trade and swap books, dvds, games, and cds...I really love this website..and it helps to get rid of the clutter and replace it with movies and books, I can watch and read now...instead of being bored with.

- Radiant Magazine
---This is a wonderful online magazine for Christian women. Relevant Media Group has done it again!

- Relevant Magazine
---Relevant Magazine: God, Life & Progressive Culture. You will not be dissapointed in this online magazine or the print magazine, either. I absolutely love it!

- Blood Water Mission
---Great cause - wonderful - check it out and you'll understand what I mean!

- Life Without Limbs
---This man is an inspiration and has an amazing story. Really puts things in perspective.

- Just Wallpaper
---Fellow Blogger: Curtis Honeycutt and his amazing blog of social justice wallpapers. Definitely check this guy's blog out...it's awesome how well done his graphics are and very impressive.

- Stuff Christians Like
---Jon Acuff's amazing website that has truly ministered to so many people and entertained all of us day after day...well done sir! WELL.....DONE!

Quotables Revealed - Answers Quiz #1

2009-03-01T17:56:00.003-05:00

Name that Movie - Answers Revealed!

1.
'I'm going to go home and have some sex!' 'Harry, you're going to go home and puke!' 'Well, that'll be fun too!' - Speed
2.
'You know you're not as scary as you think you are!' - 10 Things I Hate About You
3.
'What is it in us that seeks the truth? Is it our minds or is it our hearts?' - A Time to Kill
4.
'We know that all were doing is breeding a whole new generation of buyers and sellers, BUYERS AND SELLERS! Pimps and whores, PIMPS AND WHORES! and indoctrinating them into a life long hell of debt and indecision!' - Accepted
5.
'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained we must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be by the better angels of our nature.' - American History X
6.
'Who would think something like this would happen from harmless flares and roman candles?' - Camp Nowhere
7.
'You know what they say: People in glass houses sink sh-sh-ships.' - The Boondock Saints
8.
'Do you really think you have a chance against us, Mr. Cowboy?' - Die Hard
9.
'Don't think it's your's just because you marked it with your urine!' - Juno
10.
'Two years, two hundred and sixty-four days and this morning.' - Gladiator

Hope you had fun with that, I know I did!

Quotables - Quiz #1

2009-02-25T18:40:00.009-05:00

Greetings everyone! :-)

I originally planned on doing a movie review on a quotable movie, but I like to be different and random, so instead I am going to put a self-made quiz on here. It's my quotables quiz! All you have to do is name the movie that each quote is from (most are from my personal dvd collection, so those who know me well, will have the advantage). Give yourself 1 point for each right answer (I'll post those later) and whoever wins, well....I'll figure out some fun interweb gift to give. Happy quizzing!

Name that Movie!

'I'm going to go home and have some sex!' 'Harry, you're going to go home and puke!' 'Well, that'll be fun too!'

'You know you're not as scary as you think you are!'

'What is it in us that seeks the truth? Is it our minds or is it our hearts?'

'We know that all were doing is breeding a whole new generation of buyers and sellers, BUYERS AND SELLERS! Pimps and whores, PIMPS AND WHORES! and indoctrinating them into a life long hell of debt and indecision!'

'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained we must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be by the better angels of our nature.'

'Who would think something like this would happen from harmless flares and roman candles?'

'You know what they say: People in glass houses sink sh-sh-ships.'

'Do you really think you have a chance against us, Mr. Cowboy?'

'Don't think it's your's just because you marked it with your urine!'

10.

'Two years, two hundred and sixty-four days and this morning.'

I hope you did well! Some of them are quite obscure..but I still love it! Enjoy!

Conversing about Movie Review #2

2009-02-23T19:33:00.003-05:00

So..I wanna do a second review...obvious!

I'm not sure what movie to do this time,...I was thinking of "quoteworthy movies."

I would like some response on your most quoteworthy of movies, generally ones you absolutely love is great. One of my personal favs. would be "The Boondock Saints;" however, I don't know if I'm quite ready for that review.

So...converse away...

Movie Review #1

2009-02-14T15:50:00.010-05:00

Although I received some very good suggestions from the "crowd" of people that read my blog...I decided to choose one of my favorites...but still kind of random! So, with no further adieu, I give you..my first movie review...

This review may contain spoilers - I apologize...and am willing to take constructive criticism on how I can improve for future reviews! Thanks!

Taken(2008)

Release Date: January 30, 2009

Director: Pierre Morel

Genre: Action, Crime, Drama, Thriller

Runtime: 91 Minutes

Actors: Liam Neeson, Famke Janssen, Maggie Grace, and more!

Think "The Bourne Identity" meets "Trade". Let me explain! Taken is an action-packed movie about Bryan (Liam Neeson) who, after retiring from the Secret Service, moves to California to be closer to his daughter Kim (Maggie Smith), who lives with her mother, Lenore (Famke Janssen) and wealthy stepfather. Now that you are settled into the foundation of the story!

You soon find out that Kim has planned a trip to Europe with her friend Amanda, but in order for her to go, Bryan has to sign papers to allow his minor daughter to travel out of the country. Mistake number 1! Bryan ex-military background comes in full force as he believes this is not a good idea and tries to convince them otherwise "they do not know the world, the way he does." Bryan is not successful though, and decides to let his daughter have her freedom!

The next thing you know, Kim & Amanda (who's ridiculously idiotic) are in France, heading to their hotel. They begin chatting with perfect strangers (Mistake number 2) and Amanda gives way too much information. Without giving the full story away, the men come to take the girls, which is the predominant scene of "they will take you." Now they have released the boiling fury of a overprotective and very well-trained father!

Action and chaos ensue, as the movie opens the door to a sex trafficking world that is all too realistic for one person to handle.

My feelings on this movie....amazing, awesome, spectacular...great! I mean Liam Neeson is wonderful and I was astonished at how well he was able to portray a charactor of such fury and wrath. I am used to the normal characters of scholarly attributes, wisdom, and leaders...not necessarily let's kick some butt (Jason Bourne Style). I also appreciated the fact that this movie took the chance of exposing in cinematic glory the reality of sex trafficking. I believe this is a huge problem in our world, and too many are afraid to bring awareness to it, because it's too risky to speak of.

Overall Rating: 5 Stars!

Great Performance, Excellent Action Sequences, and not too long that you get tired of it.

Have you seen it? Let me know your thoughts!

.destiny

Movie Mayhem!!

2009-02-13T22:14:00.002-05:00

With the wonderful world of cinematic adventures becoming more and more a part of my life...because I just love my movies...I've decided to start movie reviews in my blog.

I could choose from my over 450 collection...but I'd rather leave that fate in your hands...any suggestions??

.destiny

"Look what I've become..."

2008-08-29T21:43:00.002-04:00

I've noticed I have a tendency to use random quotes from movies as my headlines for my blog entries. I don't know how I feel about this, but I still continue to do it. Oh well I suppose.

I'm finding that "theology" is becoming common in a lot of people's lives. We don't know how we feel about certain things, but we still continue to do them. For instance, the mundane, yet consistent, routine of everyday life. I find myself struggling with that on an almost daily basis.

I long for consistency and routine, some sense of normalcy, and understand in my daily life. However, I combat this all at the same time. I become so afraid to slip into routine and lose sight of reality and what I'm doing with my life. I find myself asking that question, "what am I doing with my life?" and more often than not, I cannot find an answer.

I just don't know about anything anymore. Wait, that's too broad, there are some things I know about...a good amount of information about, but they seem meaningless. The things that matter that effect my everyday life, the things of now and of tomorrow, the things of what is going on and where am I heading, the things of what difference does this make and how does that involve me...these are the things I tend to draw a blank on.

So...this post is basically for my over-psycho-analyzing self to just vomit. I don't know if there is a point, and maybe that is the point...that I do not know.

Is there freedom in that? I don't know!

.destiny.

Movie Magic

2008-08-16T22:14:00.004-04:00

I love movies! Anyone who knows me, knows this. They all comment on my extreme addiction to DVDs and how I have a "problem." Well the first step to recovery, is admitting you have a problem....well, I DO NOT have a problem. HAHA!

Anyways, I have found in my extensive research on purchasing DVDs that there are a few ways of making my life easier and my bank account not-so-depleted.

1. Search for previously viewed DVDs.

This option is amazing and does great things for your bank account as well as your ability to own all your favorite movies. The main movie rental facilities are wonderful. The best part is they will generally run deals for you, such as "Buy 2, Get 2" or "3 for $20." All on select titles of course, but still are wonderful, nonetheless. To top it all off, certain stores have lifetime warranties on their previously viewed dvds!

2. I am a big fan of Amazon Marketplace and Ebay.

Sites like these are wonderful, they provide you with great resources to locate dvd for cheap, they both offer used and new dvds. Sometimes they can be a risk, and other times they can be great...but I at least say try them out. I've found some great deals on there.

3. Swaptree.com

The last of my learned ways is swaptree. One of my best friends opened this wonderful world to me. Swaptree is an online trading site where you list movies, music, books and video games that you own, want, and would like to trade. Then the amazingness of swaptree works their magic of creating trades for you to own your desired dvds and rid yourself of the clutter of your unused/older dvds. All for no fee, except shipping of course. This is a wonderful place, and I definitely recommend it.

Now that I have addressed the wonderfulness of those revelations, I would like to discuss the importance of your movie collection. I believe that the movies you watch, as well as, the books you read, say a lot about you. So, I am going to go to discuss my collection through a series of random questions...feel free to reuse these questions according to your own collection.
**disclaimer: the answer to the multiple answered questions are in no particular order, although they may be in alphabetical :)**

1. What are the top five movies in your collection that you can watch over and over?
This may be difficult, let me go through and see...I may be able to figure this out. These movies tend to be my, let me put them in and zone out in anything else, or possibly the movie itself, but either way these movies never get old.
Boondock Saints - Ever After - Harry Potter (any of them) - Pride & Prejudice - CSI (I'm throwing this one in there because I love the series and find that I can easily pick any season and pop a disc in and just watch them again and again.)

2. What movie would you feel most comfortable in?
Hmmm...I'm going to have to go with a top five on this one as well.
Pride & Prejudice - Jane Austen Book Club - Enchanted - Someone Like You - That Thing You Do

3. Do you ever wish your life was a musical and you can randomly break out into song and dance?
YES - I had to put that question in there...lol

4. What are the top three blockbuster hits in your collection?
Aside from the Harry Potter Series...I'd have to say...The Die Hard Series...The Pirates of the Carribean Series...and the Lord of the Rings Series...I'm beginning to think I have a love of movie series...oh wait..I kind of do!

5. Do you own at least 5 Disney movies? If so, what are they?
Mulan - Aladdin - The Aristocats - Cars - of course the Pirates Series

6. Okay, I'm feeling like ending this, so the last one is just list the movies you absolutely love that are in your collection...
27 Dresses - Aladdin - Boondock Saints - Cars - Die Hard Series - Harry Potter Series - Gladiator - LOTR Series - Mrs. Doubtfire - Pirates Series - Pride & Prejudice - I'm sure there is more, but my mind isn't functioning properly at the moment.

So, on that long winded note...I'm out of here...

.destiny

The heart...

2008-07-09T18:44:00.004-04:00

From the heart

2008-03-27T22:18:00.002-04:00

Why is that a difficult thing for me?

Normally it isn't...normally, I'm a heart person. I really am.

But lately I've noticed people telling me to do things, from the heart...not out of obligation, or formality. but purely. with feeling. emotion. meaning.

I'm wrestling with this.

One of many things to be honest.

Work is keeping me busy...this is a good thing.

I got a new car! Yay for me...I think.

prayer is necessary...always.

:sometimes I love how I ramble random thoughts...and sometimes...I don't:

take it as you will.

.destiny.

Remember This!

2008-02-27T20:37:00.002-05:00

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."
-Isaiah 43:18-19

These verses have been on my mind this last two months. It was actually brought to my attention by a colleague of mine. But it has been festering in my mind for my own life, especially with this new job and situation of moving forward in life.

My questions I'm asking myself right now:

1. What are my deserts?
2. What are my wastelands?

My realizations:

1. God is making a way, where I may not be able see one!
2. He is sustaining me through everything!

:praises::love::all my words:

.destiny

"Death and Life are one. There falls no shadow where there shines no sun."

2008-02-01T19:46:00.000-05:00

Hello all! I do love that quote, I heard it in a movie, and it was hilarious...but the quote...good one!

Anyways, so let's update..and just chat. Catch up...see how each other's lives are going! Oh wow, I'm telling ya...I have no clue where any of that came from.

The job is going really well. I enjoy it a lot. I write a lot and deal with people a lot. I use the word "great" a lot! - lol - but seriously, I am enjoying it, and I enjoy being home by 4:30 too, that's awesome! I can really see myself growing in this job and learning so much as well. I'm so thankful this job has come along. EXCITING!

Couple other things going on...I plan on going snowboarding/skiing in the next several weeks...I really need to get on the ball with planning that trip. Oh something fun, I'm going to Charleston, SC for a few days in two and half weeks...that's super fun. I have to go for two days of training for some software for work, but I'm excited. I don't know if I'm flying or driving though...depends on if I can get someone to go with me.

I plan on looking into getting an apartment in the next to near future. Either that, or I'm gonna move in with Stacey and rent off of her. I also plan on taking a very nice vacation this summer, and I need to figure out the details and whatnot...this is getting exciting.

Oh my! Well, don't know what else really to say..but love ya'll and I'll talk to you again soon!

.destiny.

Here I Am

2008-01-22T20:21:00.000-05:00

I know it has been awhile...and I do apologize. I hope you all are doing wonderfully, and I know I was planning on using this as a forum for important discussion on what is going on in the world, rather than my life; but oh well!

So to update!

-Job is going quite well, I really like it and I love the people I work with. They are wonderful!
-Nothing really else of note to speak of...I mean I've just been busy with work and now I'm starting to think about what to do about an apartment.

I guess this is my quick update until I have somethine more meaningful to speak of!

.destiny.

Just Wanted To Let You Know

2007-12-29T10:43:00.000-05:00

I GOT THE JOB!!!

"Feelings, nothing more than feelings!"

2007-12-18T19:24:00.000-05:00

Hello all! The title of this blog is actually a quote from a very good movie...points to whomever can name it!

The reason I wanted to write today though, was because this past week I have felt decently good. I've been very appreciative of my friends and family this past week. Had plenty of self-esteem boosters. I love them all so much!!

It's just great to realize and be so very aware of those people you have close to you at all times. They could never understand how much I appreciate them in my life!

So...I guess this is my way of exclaiming "on the rooftops," so to speak!

.destiny.

Presidential Election 2008

2007-12-09T13:12:00.000-05:00

Lately I've become fairly interested in the 2008 Presidential Election. So...I decided to post some links for Presidential Hopefuls in 2008!

Sidenote: The following is just information taken from various Internet sources on the Presidential hopefuls in 2008.

Hillary Clinton (http://www.hillaryclinton.com/)
Barack Obama (http://www.barackobama.com/)
Rudy Giuliani (http://www.joinrudy2008.com/)
Ron Paul (http://www.ronpaul2008.com/)

I am aware that there are more "hopefuls" than these four; however, I decided to only post a few of the more important (in my opinion) ones. I was gonna post information from their websites, but after I started looking into realized there was way too much to post on here...so..check them out for yourself.

Let's try this again!

2007-12-05T21:12:00.000-05:00

It's me again! I have returned to the endless black hole that is the blogspot internet! You just get sucked in so easily now dontcha!

This is just the beginning of something great I know!

.destiny.

Reilly Quinn

2006-09-28T22:43:00.000-04:00

Okay ya'll...excellent news...my sister has had the most beautiful baby boy I've ever seen!

It's true...he's absolutely precious.

He's a chunk...big boy...9 lbs!!

I call him squeaker...he squeaks!

here are some pictures of the most adorable baby boy you would ever see in your life!

Isn't he just beautiful...I know you agree!!

.destiny.

"You wanna see beauty? Look in the mirror!"

2006-09-17T22:46:00.000-04:00

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know what you all are going to say. It has bee a loooooonnnggg time. I know! sadly, I know!

My last post was sometime last May, and although my life doesn't feel like it has changed much, it's slightly different.
I'm working full time at my retail management job, still trying to figuring out goal for work, and where God is leading me. School is over, but living with two people that are still in college, along with all the close friends, still in college, and living in a University town...well...college is over I suppose, but it doesn't feel much like it.

My sister is having her baby in like a week and a half....I'm super super excited.

I'm really not sure what to post, and I believe it's because I have a lot to say, but choose not to voice my thoughts via the internet. I don't wanna be that person who complains and just talks about everything going on in their life, to everyone. You should never clean your dirty laundry in public...I think that was in a movie. Oh well, if you really wanna talk to me, i'm sure I will talk to you...

my life...is my life.

.destiny.

oh yeah the title of this post is a quote from "Pretty in Pink", and amazing movie that I watched tonight! :-)

What now??

2006-05-22T21:14:00.000-04:00

Well, let's update, since it truly has been quite a while.

Today is may 22, 2006. On may 13th, I graduated from the college of business and economics. I'm officially done college, unless later in life I decide to return for graduate school. In June, I will be starting my managerial position with Steve & Barry's University Sportswear. This is exciting and makes me slightly nervous. I have to go New York for training on the 4th, so I will then be out of town for a week and a half. Other than that, my life right now is working and eating and sleeping.

so that's the brief update, I don't have much else to say.

oh yeah, i also miss some people.

.destiny

wow..it has been awhile

2006-03-27T21:14:00.000-05:00

Hi everybody! I know, I know, it's been like forever since I updated this. Believe me, I am upset with myself over not keeping up with it. Anyways...does anyone wanna know what's been goin' on in my life, it's been oh so exciting!

Well actually over the last two months I've been searching and searching for a job, since graduation is like 7 weeks away. wow that's scary. I've been searching for a job and trying to finish up my classes, along with going to my part-time job. My classes completely and utterly bore me, and I'm not even kidding on that one. the job hunt is oh so tiring, and not so successful either. on a happy note, my sister is pregnant, so every time I go home I get to listen to convos about that and such, it's quite fun. plus she's moving back home, my parents gave her some land. it's nice to see her and her husband's house being set up on the land and such. I'm feeling old!

on the newest of news...I got a bike!!

I hope to have more to say later...

.d.

Who...

2006-01-29T22:20:00.000-05:00

"Who did you love before me...No-one!...and after...No-one!"

Sorry people, I had to put a quote from the most recent movie I've seen in theaters...Tristan & Isolde. Which I would have to say, was awesome. I loved it...it was super great, super romantic, super battle-like. It just had so much to satisfy so many moviegoers. But I only ramble.

So I hope everyone is doing well. I'm doing alright. I've had a lot on my mind lately. Let me just tell ya some about it!

Right now, I'm currently enjoying the listening pleasures (and somewhat viewing pleasures) of Comedy Central's Stand-Up Comedy Showdown...simply entertaining. I just wish I wouldn't have missed Dane Cook, he is my favorite. I'm also thinking and conjuring up thoughts on various other subjects. Lately the subject of solitude and loneliness has been on my mind. With the concluding idea that I am lonely, and I know it. But...I am able to overcome and deal with it. I know that things will change inevitably, but while they are the same as now...I will live.

Another thought lingering through my infinite brainwaves is one recently put in by my roomie. Camping!! I want to go camping, I want to hang out with my closest friends and just have some quality bonding time and create amazing memories and just absolutely bask in the glory of friendship. I love it! Plus with the whole ideas of graduation and "life" peering it's head around the corner, I'm compelled to do memorable things in life. I want to do something spontaneously planned?!

CRU last week discussed the idea of solitude and silence. This concept is just incredible. The idea of growing closer to God through solitude and silence, the idea of pouring ourselves before the Father in Heaven, the idea of turning off our computers, our cell phones, our ipods, the idea that should be a reality. The idea of...focus, the idea of...complete reverence, the idea of...pure community, where everything fades away except for the communion with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. How can I fear silence? I feel that if I fear silence and solitude, I fear..my Father, my Savior, my Guiding Light.

"Nothing is so insufferable to man as to be completely at rest, without
passions, without business, without diversion, without study. He then feels his nothingness, his forlornness, his insufficiency, his dependence, his weakness, his emptiness. There will immediately arise from the depth of his heart weariness, gloom, sadness, fretfulness, vexation, despair."--Blaise Pascal
.d.

Oh my...

2006-01-15T22:34:00.000-05:00

Wow, it's been awhile. My apologies to my my vast fanbase. sure.

So what's happened in the last month. I'll give you the brief synopsis.

So...after finals in the beginning of December, I got my grades for the semester, good good. No major problems there. Then I worked some before Christmas came. When Christmas finally got here, I was able to spend time with the family, which was excellent, as always. I got a new Casio keyboard for Christmas and I have been teaching myself the read music and play ever since then...I'm actually getting the hang of it...surprisingly to some. After Christmas came and went, I came back out to Mo-town and left for the 2006 Nokia Sugar Bowl with the Pride, where WVU managed to beat Georgia 38-35. Amazing and sweet victory, I might add. After spending New Year's in Georgia, which is a story in itself, and the game there, we came back home. I proceeded to work for the remainder of my semester break, and now am currently entering the second week of the Spring 2006 semester of classes.

So the update of the here and now...I'm taking 12 credits, which includes Dance 101, Social Work 147, and Advertising 215, along with my Independent Study. I'm still working consistently, and awaiting a response from Target on the internship (your prayers would be much appreciated). I'm also having some anxiety over a the job search...b/c I'm realizing more and more that I graduate in May!!! So..pray for me...please!

and hey...have a good one.

*I'll catch you on the flipside*

.d.

The latest...

2005-12-01T18:23:00.000-05:00

The latest and it was two days in the making (you'd think it would be better, but hey i like it)...

Let my tears run through this river of devotion
as eagerly I await the dawning of a notion
to unveil the beauty that lies beneath the scars
and surface the reality of the stars
so distant and bright within the night
radiating an unseen perfection
in each and every light
and through this night, I shine so bright
revealing all the glory above
magnifying nothing but love, till morning dawns
and the sun stands still to brighten the
river's cascading fill and show hope, reveal
glory, the Creator's magnificent perfection
revealed in fullness before Thee. and to Thee
give thanks for solace and despair, where
tears are bottled in the fill of thee who cares.

.d.

old-school?

2005-11-27T22:28:00.000-05:00

alright kids, i found this on my old xanga site...i hope it's somewhat entertaining to you all

'I give up on this cruel and heartless world
all that stands before me now is this vast openness
this quiet array of scarlet pores
that holds nothing but bitter remorse
for all this world has is nothing to give me
this heart is broken and bleeding from within
a lonely heart tells many a story
of days lost but not forgotten
tears drop as consistent as rain in the morning
and cleansing comes from within'

.d.

Bradley Hathaway is amazing!!

2005-11-18T11:49:00.000-05:00

it's truth..check it out for yourself:

Bradley Hathaway's MySpace

"I Am A Manly Man"

Ramblings

2005-11-15T18:49:00.000-05:00

according to http://www.answers.com, disconfirmation bias refers to the tendency for people to extend critical scrutiny to information which contradicts their prior beliefs and accept uncritically information that is congruent with their prior beliefs.

I believe we are all guilty of this. We all look to information to confirm our beliefs and thoughts on anything and everything, but the minute something comes into the flow that could possibly negate what we think...what do we do?! we call it absurd, on in the slightest regard we justify it...we turn it around to being positive remarks toward our 'prior belief'.

my motto: assume nothing until it is confirmed...the fault in this theory; however, is the lack of faith...in order to truly embrace a concept, we must have faith in it's existence...that turns me around to faith...faith is "the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen."...what stands out to me...'substance of things hoped for.'...hope...what is that...it's a desire...a forethought, so to speak, of what's expected to be fulfilled...so in an essence our hope is our belief. so does that come around full circle...in believing, we attempt to confirm that which we believe, yet in relying upon confirmation, we leave out faith with is important in establishing what you do believe, and part of faith is hoping...hoping for something with great expectation of it's fulfillment or a belief...so do we believe in a hopeful faith-induced expectation?

what do we believe?

oh the ramblings of my mind...

d.

2005-11-08T19:22:00.000-05:00

I ponder myself...my own inadequecies...my downfalls. Why? Why are insecurities present in a heart that seems so confident? LORD, I do not understand my own thoughts and the why's and how's of my life...I believe the confusion...leaves me confused?! I long for answers, yet I fear them. I long for movement, yet I fear loss of comfort. I long for difference, yet the same is so familiar. How do I contradict myself! How do I battle myself and You are the same time. I long to obey You, yet my being struggles. Wants, desires, beliefs, passions...these are what stir the being into action. Why do I feel so immobile and sedentary?? My heart aches as I feel that pain is my allie. Oh sweet love, rescue me from this misery, hold me in Your gentle comfort, soothe me with Your whispers of grace...Oh how I long...all, everything more...

"Nobody moves me like You"

2005-11-04T15:51:00.000-05:00

Hi guys!!

So let me tell you what's up! Lately I have been a little cranky, my apologies to those who have endured it! I just don'tknow what's up!

Anyways, but to let everyone in on the good news...I have an interview next Friday in Pittsburgh with Target. I'm super excited about this. So yeah pray for me, cause this would be super great.

Later people!

.d.

A Consistent Lapse of Sanity...again!

2005-10-26T19:47:00.000-04:00

So what's up! First off, props to those that tried my quiz, and boo to ya'll that didn't! It really wasn't that hard! :-)

So lately, it's been whoa...first off, there was this massive blizzard, which was like ahhmazing. It was actually pretty cool, until the trees started falling and breaking everywhere, and the people started skidding into ditches and then everyone was at a loss of power. I mean what?! Actually today I didn't have any power for a period of like 7 hours..it about drove me nuts. But the funny part was getting everything situated, I mean I was trying to figure out what we were gonna do with the food and where I was gonna get warmth, and it was just kind of entertaining. Then it was like..boom...we have power again! AWESOME! They, the electric company that is, told us it would be out until probably noon on Friday, so pretty sweet!

Other than that, I've been nonchalantly doing things. Which sucks, I'm not really enthralled in anything right now! This kind of irritates me. Mainly because it makes me think and wonder about things that I do not wanna think and wonder about...things that I've thought and wondered about for months and I really don't wanna let my mind roll around the ideas and thoughts of them, b/c they just drive me insane! I mean seriously, what?! but I don't know. I mean I just don't understand some things and some people, and I know I'm probably not supposed to or something like that, but I guess when part of me is in anyway involved in it, I tend to take it personally. (btw, in case you are wondering what this rant is about, do not assume someone has done something to tick me off or put me in the middle of some fiasco or something of sorts, this is not the case...just a case of...emotional breaking...or maybe just...hitting the wall that's barriered up, oh how I want to climb it). Anyways, on that note, I'm gonna go...get warm and get food...I'm hungry!!

D

Do You Really Know Me??

2005-10-20T22:57:00.000-04:00

It's quiz time, my friends.

Do you really know me? Here's some important and not-so-important questions pertaining to myself, that I would like to evaluate my friends and see how much you really know me. hmm...interesting!

1. What is my middle name?

2. what color is my eyes? Is there something significant about one of them? (asking this question would imply that there is, but do you know what it is?!)

3. how many brothers and/or sisters do I have?

4. what is my favorite cheesy saying? **you should know this**

5. who is one of my favorite male vocalist?

6. what is my favorite part of the music I listen to?

7. what would be the ideal job, in my eyes?

8. what would be my freak-show talent?

9. what is my favorite tv show?

10. what is one of my current favorite movies? (if you name one of the many, you still get the
credit...yeah i'm just that nice)

11. what is something I enjoy doing that not everyone knows about me? *oooh...tough one...it
isn't really*

12. what is my favorite food?

13. who/what is my passion in life?

14. what country do I really really really really wanna visit?

and lastly,...

15. what is something of mine, that I wish everyone could see?

Good luck people!

D.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G

2005-10-19T13:45:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to relay a story to ya'll, b/c it absolutely shocks me! So, Jess Poe and I were hanging out last night, which I would have to say was absolutely amazing! b/c Jess Poe is just an amazing girl! ;-) Anyways...so we were hanging out and we decided to drive around town and just talk. We were at the four intersection on patteson, in front of the coliseum and the light turned green, so I started to go forward, and then suddenly...this car like comes upon my rear and rams into the back of my car. I was like oh my gosh, as our bodies like flung forward. I kind of spazzed out. So i went straight into the coliseum and sadly the guy who hit me did not. so i parked the car, still shaken and was just like sort of in a frantic mess..and jess was like it's okay it's okay..everything will be okay. So after we calmed down we decided to assess the damage. When we looked at the back bumper of my car, both of our jaws just dropped. There was nothing wrong with the rear end of my car. minus maybe like the smallest fraction of a scratch on my bumper, that was it. I looked at her and was like "you did feel that right?! I'm not just making it up." Jess was like yeah, he hit you pretty hard, i don't know why your car is not damaged. it was way weird, we just stood there for like 20 minutes and was like 'huh!'. it was really strange...but thank God..I mean seriously praise Jesus, cause that is the only explanation I can come up with.

D.

Past originals!

2005-10-17T23:47:00.000-04:00

The following are, of course, not yet titled:

(08-04-05)
A vast openness before me,
calling my name into the wild, untamed terrain.
Who is to be my voice in this space
that is too large for me to be heard?
How am I to know the way to go?
Everything looks so settled, unconsumed, untouched.
My Lord, You will show me the way
through this wooded abyss that
will not devour my soul.

(08-08-05)
The grip of passion instills in me a
desire to be filled by You.
The pierces, bruises, open sores that
bear a resemblance to life anew.
Anguish, pain, this all surround me entirely,...
To the extent of loss of hope? NEVER!
Enduring, believing, all that You have for me,...
Do otherwise? How could I ever!
You hold the barriers that shape
the romance of my life.
All in Your hands...the love, the happiness, the anger, and the strife.
Help me feel Your Presence near me!

.D.

Sweet Victory!

2005-10-16T15:25:00.000-04:00

So what's up?! This has been a sweeeeet weekend! Let me just tell ya!

So Thursday night, got to go to CRU, which was awesome! Got to hang out with some ahhmazing people. Then Friday I had to work, which wasn't the greatest, but wasn't all that bad. All I really did all morning was situate sweatshirts and hang them on the walls. Oh yeah and we had to pull in the freight order, which was just so exciting. After that I didn't have a whole lot to do, I had a few errands, then band. Which was awesomely cut short, b/c of the homecoming parade that night. The parade wasn't bad, but had it's ups. I mean I love my ahhmazing friends who cheered for me...you all know who you are!! That was fun! After that I got to go to the Roadhouse for Greg's birthday and hang out with some more super fun people, that was enjoyable as well! Then i got to hang out at Amy's for the night before the game the next day! Now to the game...sweet game that is! Let me just tell ya...it started out sucking, I mean literally we were bored to tears almost...b/c i mean i could show ya the pics that we took of us just goofin' off b/c we were bored, that was at least until the 4th quarter. WVU vs. Louisville....down 24-7...8 minutes remaining in the fourth. WVU is able to bring it back and tie it up 24-24 with one minute remaining. Then leads to overtime!!! not just one, not just two, but triple overtime!!! where we finally take louisville 46-44, when we block their two point conversion. let me just say...wahoo!! and...I'll take that! it was awesome, so much super fun and ahhhmazing!! :-)
After all that was done, I then got to walk the roughly mile to mile and a half I'd say...back to my apartment...showered, and then kara and I had a victory starbucks visit! that was fun as well. I do suggest the pumpkin spice latte to anyone who would like to try it! then to top everything off, my mom and my sister came to visit today...so extra sweet! and now i'm just updating you all on my life...are you glad to know this! :-)

on that note!! later yo!

D.

what's up

2005-10-12T19:12:00.000-04:00

hi! what's goin' on~! so right now i'm just setting here watching CSI and thinking about the loads of homework i've done a wonderful job of procrastinating and not doing for the past few weeks. i kind of wanna kick myself because of it. i'm falling into an apathetic state of mind. oh well i guess!

my mind is kind of tired anyway....the thought-processing has driven me close to my emotional edge. it's exhausting when you are trying to figure things out from the correct perspective..that of God's. i just wish i knew what He wanted in so many things. i firmly believe that no matter what His Will will come to pass, i guess i just fear being unworthy and insignificant. yeah, you are probably trying to figure out how to get unworthy and insignificant from me trying to figure out God's Will. but thus is the chaos of my mind.

oh my heart...there's so much in it right now...so many things floating.

let me tell you...my current favorite song (which is older, that I love) is..."hands in the air" by The Waiting.

D.

B-E-A-utiful

2005-10-09T19:18:00.000-04:00

how 'bout that! So I just got back not long ago from fall retreat, and let me just say, God is ahhhmazing!!!

it was an awesome, awesome time of fellowship and brokenness. Which is so freeing! I cannot even get into all of it on here, but to know that God is working in the hearts of those close to me, is so wonderful. Including my own heart!! PRAISE HIM!

.D.

A War Within

2005-10-03T13:51:00.000-04:00

hi all! I say 'all', but really it's only maybe like two people! hello there you two! :-)

Anyways, so lately my thought processing has been a little out of hand, I think. I've been thinking about this and that and everything in between. I'm reading Blue Like Jazz, which I'm sure Jason would appreciate...am I right?! Anyways, it's a great book, awesome read. The author, I believe, does a good job of being blatantly honest. Which I love!!! I mean I know we have to be cautious and think of others and such, but sometimes, the truth just needs to be told, don't dilute it by making it sound "better"...what can sound better than the truth! I mean I may think I wanna hear what I wanna hear, but if it's not the truth, there's no weight to it, so it doesn't hold...

anyways..i've also been contemplating some life changes and such as that. graduation...almost around the corner, yet further away than i sometimes give it credit for. what am I doing? I mean I war within myself on this stuff. I can hear myself beating against me to figure things out, to figure out what it is that God is calling me to, but I can hear myself just as much saying "do not look too far into the future, do not lose sight of the present, enjoy each day and trust God in leading you minute by minute, instead of life cycle by life cycle." and so much of me depnds on that thought processing and yet...so much of me gets anxious about the unknown. I think one of the most interesting parts of it all, is sometimes I feel I (somewhat) have it all figured out. I get these amazingly deep thoughts on life, love, happiness and all that jazz...and yet, I still feel I don't know what to do in pertaining to life, love, happiness and all that jazz. and I'm just as guilty as the next person of things I get heated about...which irritates me further. my analytical mind will one day drive me into the ground.

for instance...I was thinking about this whole, knowing what God has for me upon graduation. and where he's leading me. cause I grew up around people that were very nonchalant about where God was taking them in life. I mean I loved it, they had a blind faith approach. I mean if they would come up to me and be like 'okay, next month my wife and I are moving to africa to feed the hungry, we've been praying about it and firmly believe that's where God is leading us."I was like whoa...i mean what's goin' on...but totally awesome and enthralled, I wanted that!! I didn't necessarily want to be called to missions in africa, I just wanted an abrupt call from God being like...wait, this is what's up! and then there were those people that for years were like, i'm called to this and this is what i'm gonna do with my life...now the waiting process begins. and for some reason I would get infuriated. I felt so strongly that that would lose sight of this present time. they were so enthralled by their future calling, that right now was just a "waiting period"...I would rather focus on where God is calling me in the next 5 minutes, there where God is calling me in the next 5 years. and i'm just as guilty of both.

I know God has a ministry for me, but I'm still not sure of what it is. I know my passions, I know what I want in life, I know where God grabs me and just puts me in place...sometimes...but do I know what it is God is directly purposing me...not quite yet...do I feel it is great things...most assuredly YES. So my period of waiting, deliberating, and figuring things out, I'll try and focus on where God wants me in the next 5 minutes!

have a good one, and if the rapture comes before we talk again, I'll see ya soon!!

D.

la la la...

2005-09-29T13:32:00.000-04:00

Singing along with the voices in my head...

My thoughts right now are wide...and yet narrow. I have so much going through my head, it's craziness!!

I'm thinking about graduation, and suddenly decided to start sending my resume to various places, how fun is that! I probably won't get much response, but hey, at least I feel a little better for attempting, right?! So I'm thinking about what I want to do, with my life and just what I want to do in general right now!

I really really really wanna do something fun for myself. I know that sounds extremely selfish and is constantly convicting me, but I wanna be enthralled by the beauty of God. I wanna be swept up into something amazing (I know I already am, I just wanna feel it). I wanna go to Italy. I know this is fairly random, but it's true. And the way my mind works, is that I think about how soon I need to go or what-have-you, before it's too late and I'm stuck in the 9-5 rut (which I hope to never really get "stuck" in). So yeah, I really wanna take that trip...really really wanna! I also wanna learn sign language, as I said in a previous post, and I wanna learn the piano. Have you ever thought about being in a certain fantasy realm so-to-speak. Early I was thinking about how amazing and just beautiful it would feel to be setting in front of a grand piano, in a dark room with a single candle for light, playing the most amazing music and pouring my soul to God in the process. I do believe that is why I want to play the piano. Too bad, I have no musical ability and cannot read music (thanks for trying Kara). I have a deep desire to learn the piano though..i mean it's...like whoa! I've also been thinking about what kind of a job I would be happy in...this sometimes upsets me, cause I fear I will not be happy in the working realm, but then I think that is where I am most prosperous and I feel that is where God is calling me, and using me...I think..do we ever no for sure?! Also, when I think of this "dream job"...I think of how unreachable it is...at least immediately. I feel as if it will takes years to get to that point, and I fear those years previous to achieving the said goal....okay enough ranting...my mind will continue to mull through everything...*sigh*

-D

craziness!

2005-09-27T11:11:00.000-04:00

Talk about a load. I just got done talking to my mom on the phone. The latest of the family whereabouts and such is quite a mess. See, my relatives who were lucky enough to be saved from the wrath of Hurricane Katrina, were not overlooked by Hurricane Rita. Thankfully though, they were able to get out of Lake Charles before Rita hit, and all of them (the whole lot of 18 of them) were deeply effected (is it effected or affected) by Rita's hit. So, as of right now roughly 9, or maybe 11, I lost count...of them are coming back to good ole' West Virginia to stay with relatives. Namely, as of the moment..my mother! My poor parents...please pray for them. Mainly the majority of these cousins coming back are children. Which I found out will be enrolled in my old primary school back home for the next month to month and a half. So yeah, it's crazy and confusing. I'm happy to see my cousins, whom I love dearly, yet haven't seen in years. I just wish the circumstances could be better.

On a happy note of all of this, damage was high on their homes, but all were salvageable. Thank God!

later yo!
..D..

this and that

2005-09-25T21:00:00.000-04:00

hello all! So this weekend was crazy!! Let me just tell ya about it!

My sister got married on Saturday! Which was beautiful! It was so great to see all my family and spend time together with them in such a joyful setting. I loved it! The wedding was gorgeous, my sister was beautiful and everything went smoothly, after we got over the inital bumps. :-) It truly was a great time and I have plenty of pictures to prove it, sorry I'm not postin' 'em on here! You'll have to IM me to see them ;)

Other than that, WVU played ECU this weekend and won!! Wahoo for an undefeated season..so far!

So right now, i'm exhausted, and i've procrastinated so much, and just literally semi-drained of energy, but...I'm in a fairly good mood, which is great! Much love to all my people.....catch ya on the flipside!

D

2.5 seconds

2005-09-19T16:36:00.000-04:00

Okay this'll be quick! To my readers, oh i know there is very few of you...I'm using this as my outlet right now, my mind and heart needs to let it out!

I wanna read! I wanna get back into reading my novels again. I just bought two books today and I'm so excited to read them...and yet I feel like I do not have the time to do so! *sigh*

Also, just a little tidbit of information for anyone who really cares. I really wanna learn sign language! yes, sign language! not because I know anyone who's deaf, but because I would love to learn more on how to communicate with someone who is!

i'll try and write more later...

D

2005-09-13T12:54:00.000-04:00

Howdy! So procrastinating is BAD! I've learned this! Among the other things I've had the chance to explore lately has actually been, my homework. I've been reading a lot of research on dietary supplement, hopelessness, and the negativity effect. This stuff if very interesting actually. I mean how can the FDA allow a claim to be put on a dietary supplement, then basically put a disclaimer, which tends to be in extremely small print, that basically refutes the claim itself?! There is a problem here!! Anyways!

Alright, so what's been my life lately?! Honestly, I have trouble answering that question. I've done a lot with band, some with work, got some extra sleep, done some homework, and some goofin' off, as well. The question I ask myself though is what have I done that matters?? So many questions floating in my mind right now pertaining to this, that, and EVERYTHING in between! Oh well!

So what's up in my mind right now....who knows?!

I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about a certain situation...ugh...figuring things out can sometimes be fun, but more often than not leave you feeling like you are in a world of uncertainty!

Updates at the apartment, for anyone who cares, we got 2 new fish, a snail and a frog. Hopefully Akuji will not eat any of them. I believe their names were Nuria, Keanu, Hector, and the frog was yet to be named. The League of Nations we are forming in our fish tank is amazing, soon it will be war of the nations and if any of them die, we'll see who is the superior nation...lol :-)

alright, on that note...later yo...**catch ya on the flipside!

2005-09-07T22:09:00.000-04:00

I'm tired...of myself. The irritation I am finding in my soul searching is beyond my own comprehension. I wonder why I tend to worry or even allow an excessive amount of thought to something, that truly is not in my control. Lord, take it away.

I've been inspired to type some randomness into this entry...so here we go!

: these mysterious inabilities to create the mass chaos in this unfound world of the mundane alludes to the only thing that holds this inept life together - (04-25-05):

Also,
--I really want to go walk the brick streets in Italy...oh how I long for romance.
--I really want to meet my half-brother.
--I really want to pour my heart and soul into something I love.
--I really want to pour my heart and soul into someone I love.
--I really long to grasp the beauty of God, beyond comprehension.
--I really wish you knew my heart and loved me just the same.

D.

reflection

2005-09-05T22:24:00.000-04:00

wow! So..I feel that for the last week I've been somewhat (choosingly) oblivious to the happenings of hurricane katrina in the south. It wasn't until this weekend, as I was at home with my family, that I truly focused on this devastating event. My mom, who watches CNN, FoxNews, and MSNBC like it's her life, decided to numerous times inform me of the updates with the situation at hand. My mind was numb, watching the images roll across the screen. I was happy; however, in realizing that the hurricane went northeast instead of northwest, b/c having gone northwest my aunt, uncle, and their roughly 20 kids and grandkids houses would've all been demolished in it's path. My thoughts went blank at that point. Roaming through were the words "catastrophic" and "5"...I just didn't understand why some people would choose to stay, when the odds...terribly not in their favor. I've heard so many opinions and thoughts too pertaining to what is going on now, and what should be done and all this stuff...and I just do not know. My response to more shock than anything else. But at the same time, I wish I could take off the next few weeks and go and help people...I'm somewhat surprised by this delayed response of mine, but I want to leave and help...I want to make a difference in helping someone else return to a normal (whatever that may be) state of living. Oh..my heart breaks for them.

2005-09-01T23:09:00.000-04:00

**sidenote: I tend to not title the things I write, until maybe..a later date, if I feel like it! Also...this one is not necessarily finished...my words ran dry...mind you, not my thoughts! :-) Enjoy!**

The piercing pain of my bleeding heart,
among the silent cries of hope...
drawing yet another into the recluse
of love immortal.
Everything surrounds, entangles and drowns
in this pool of emotions.
As the air thickens between us
my inner being whispers a prayer.
Oh Holy Father, who knows the hearts frailty
better than I...
Piece together the brokenness that I must endure.
Your hands smooth over any distortion of who I am.
My longings reveal Your touch.
May Your fingerprints be evident.
Oh...wrap me in the gentle comfort of Your arms
and hold the aching of my soul...

Totally Random!

2005-08-29T12:15:00.000-04:00

I'm in the mood for some 'raw' experiences! I mean those that just invoke every part of your being and afterwards, you are like...that was awesome!! I wanna be "swept away in the arms of love", I wanna be told "have I told you lately that I love you", I wanna hear the beating of the heart, other than my own! My romantic heart is gasping for breath in this world of unfathomable self-consciousness!

Let your heart hear these words!!

"Are we debating just to win the argument?" - JR

"My greatest strength is also my strongest weakness" - JR

"Together we sing...everyone sing.." - CT

"When troubles come and my heart burdened be; then, I am still and wait here in the silence, until you come and sit awhile with me." - JG

"Under the weight of a clear endless sky. It seems like we waste all our time making time." - HoH

"Your words rip and tear through my heart so weak and pure" - AS

"Yet another day seems like it's wasted, you don't feel you're any closer to the prize...things will get better this I promise you." - Sp

"I am alive in love, a love that will never die, Jesus, Your love is what keeps me alive" - TA

"The earth is filled with His Glory" - CT

"Sovereign, You are still sovereign, even when confusion has blinded my eyes....I come into Your chambers and I dance at Your feet Lord!" - UNKNOWN

"My depths of solitude are only seen by Him alone." - D

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The madness!!!!

2005-08-23T21:10:00.000-04:00

Hey all! so far, this week has been...a unique one to say the least. I don't know yet what is to come of some situations, but I hope for the best.

Got some disheartening news last night...I really am feeling satan attacking relational bonds that are close to me, and just altogether attacking the hearts of those that mean so much to me. Prayer is a much needed thing right now!

"Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name"

Today was my first actual day of classes, wahoo for being a senior. The greatest part was that I only really had two classes. AND...one of them was my dance class!!! It was awesome, I loved it, so much fun, not even kidding you!!! The Aluna Lui is amazing!! But yeah anyways...alright that's it for now, I'll add some poetry I wrote a short while ago and you can give me your critiques if you would like, or praise, or whatever you feel like...;-)

"A vast openness before me, calling my name into the wild untamed terrain. Who is to be my voice in this space, that is too large for me to be heard? How am I to know the way to go? Everything seems so settled, unconsumed, untouched. My Lord, You will show me the way through this wooded abyss that will not devour my soul. All my love, everything defines me, and more!"

LOVER'S HEART

"The grip of passion instills in me a desire to be filled by You.

The pierced, bruises, open sores that bear a resemblance to life anew.

Anguish, pain, this all surrounds me entirely...

To the extent of loss of hope? NEVER.

Enduring, believing, all that you have for me...

Do otherwise? How could I ever?!

You hold the barriers that shape the romance of my life.

All in Your hands...the love, the happiness, the anger, and the strife.

Help me feel Your Presence near me!"

Huh?!

2005-08-21T22:25:00.000-04:00

Well hello everyone! To all my anxious readers (sure...let me believe it)...I would like to say how's it been? I know my posting lately have been sporadic, at the least, but also haven't been much to "chew on", so to speak. I'm not sure if this post will quench anyone thirst either, but enjoy anyway I suppose.

So band camp is over, thank the Lord! I can't help it, but it needed to be done! It was hot, exhausting, I was irritable. The only good thing about it, was getting the little bit that we were able to get finished, accomplished! That was great! So, now that band camp is over, we all know what that means....classes start back up! This, I'm unsure of my feelings of as of yet. Since I don't have class until tuesday, b/c I was fortunate to find out that your senior year is so much more laid-back than the previous three years of your undergrad, I'm not quite sure of how things will work out! I am, however, looking forward to my dance class! Ballroom dancing will be fun...hopefully! I can pretend I know how to dance a little until mr. right sweeps me off my feet on the dance floor?! I'm hoping and praying that this semest doesn't exhaust me too much...I would like to make enough memories to enjoy it! As of yet, I have two jobs (possibly one within the coming weeks, we'll see how that turns out), I have 13 hours, plus CRU leadership and Rifle leadership and Rank leadership in guard. But 2 of those hours are band (oh yeah, did I mention that band takes up about 20some hours a week of my life in the fall?!), another 2 of those are my ballroom/folk/square dancing class. Wahoo for PE classes! In all actuality I only have 2 main 'capstone' courses, and my independent study. I hope I'm able to survive.

Now that the boringness is over. Lately I've been thinking alot about random things. Isn't that great?! I mean thoughts have ran through my head about what I wanna do after graduation and so on and so forth, and I keep thinking that I don't wanna plan anything, I mean in all seriousness, to take it one day at a time, is great advice. 'Cause if I plan something, 10 to 1 it won't turn out the way I plan it...I'm not in control of my life, I've given that control over to the One who rightfully deserves it! I just pray I'm able to keep up with Him!

Alright...now I'm gonna fall in rank...sleep time ya'll! (yeah yeah it's only 1030..i'm a bum..but i'm allowed to be one right now!)

Catch ya' on the flipside!

band camp...is my life

2005-08-18T21:46:00.000-04:00

So yeah..I haven't posted anything in a while. Let me just explain in two words:

BAND CAMP!

oh and sidenote jason....the comment on my other post...was NOT a friend of mine and has been removed..thank you for bringing that to my attention! :-)

Anyways, so band camp has been my life for the past few days, if not week! We are progressing well and the first show should definitely be a good one!! I'm kind of excited for it!

plus...classes start next week, so...busy busy busy! I don't really know what else to say, I feel kind of hurried right now! So maybe I'll check back later...just wanted to update! later ya'll

Rant!

2005-08-10T15:51:00.000-04:00

Alright...so let me just say, I love everyone! But I especially love all my christian friends. Ah..the fellowship! It truly is ahhhmazing! Like a breath of fresh spirited air!

Can I address a grievance though?!

Sincerity?! Let's define this now: sincerity !
My favorite definition listed would have to be "the quality of being open and truthful; not deceitful or hypocritical". Now in my years of being around church-folk alike and many others who profess a christian belief system, I have encountered some who do not fit into this definition. Now, mind you, I am not perfect and there are times alone that I do not fit either. Always fitting is not the key, but rather the attempt to be sincere is. Let me explain myself. Lately I have delved deeper into my own true self and who God has made me, specifically, to be. Which is truly an adventure. As well as noting this, I have also noticed the fellowship that includes "Hi, how are you doing, how is your life?"...which is not a bad thing to do, but the motives, feelings, and overall sincerity behind it, is the issue. Now some tend to believe it is part of the facade that some put up. That they have to appear pleasant and loving at all times. Which I don't disagree with or agree with either. But, when you ask me how my life is...don't brush the conversation away after 5 minutes?! I mean do you really care?! Or are you doing your christian duty of checking up?! How does that work?

I fear that within today's culture, today's youth and especially today's young adult generation there is a press to fit the mold. What mold you ask? The mold of the somewhat, but not-so-stereotyped christian. I mean think about it! How do you think a christian should act? That is the wrong question, it is not how we perceive christianity to fit into the wholeness of society. We cannot be another fad, or phase, or subculture of society. We are a living, breathing, body! Is the body breathing as a whole?
I believe, that as christians, we are not supposed to be the mothers and the fathers of the unsaved or the newly-reborn. I do not believe that our position is to check-up and check-out (for the most part) on the lives of those around us. We are brothers and sisters, we are supposed to build relationships! Christ is all about relationships! Solid-built relationships! Not a say hi, hello, how are you and then nothing till five months later, another hi, hello, how are you!

Okay, well I sincerely hope that this wasn't just a rant, but maybe my own step towards a more sincere outreach!

Oh..the poo!

2005-08-08T21:36:00.000-04:00

Okay...I'm tired. Let me just start on a happy note :-)..sure!

Well this weekend was fun, sort of! I had my sister's bridal shower on saturday, that was fun. I surprisingly knew quite a bit about my sister...so that was cool. I got to play the cheesy games and everything, so score for that and fun food. OH and one of the most amazing parts of the day, was the fact that my aunt, who's like the greatest cook ever...made me a red velvet cake..oh my goodness...it's amazing!

but, let me just rant a moment. I guess I'm getting into the age bracket now that's gotta get used to what I'm about to rant about, but okay! So, when I was at the bridal shower, I got asked numerous times the infamous question, "You gotta man?"...almost said like if I had the time. nonchalant, with a slight bit of care. I think it's because for a while now I've been hearing the "You're next" comments from around the family. Considering I am the youngest and only one not married or about to be! Oh well...I guess I'll just get used to it, but ya know! I mean seriously...how about we ask more about my life, it doesn't revolve around whether or not I have a significant other. Also, my next steps in life will not be designated to marriage or relationships...we live in different times people. I'm still figuring out what God wants me to do with my life, that person will fit into HIS schedule and plans perfectly...so...yeah!

on another note...

So I've been working at my second job quite a bit lately, and we open on wednesday, wahoo for that! It's been fun working there, and interesting to see how everything gets put together. My feet are killing me though. I seriously hope and pray that everything works together once school and such gets all together with this second. I don't wanna collapse from the continuous movement and working....and I hope to actually have a social life. So i guess we'll see! I work with some pretty fun people, so hopefully we won't get into trouble...much! :-)

So...I know this is short and sucky but I'm gonna go...watch some tv with my extra time.

*Wyatt Earp*Catch ya' on the flipside*

Ho hum!

2005-08-04T15:23:00.000-04:00

What to say? Well, not really sure, but I'm sure I can come up with something!

I'd first like to recognize an amazing quote from an article I recently read on Relevant Magazine online:

"go say this to a friend, “Hey, man, you should check out ‘Honky Tonk Badonkadonk,’” and see if he doesn’t punch you in the face."

LOL! Cracks me up everytime! Alright, where was I..oh yeah..don't really have much to ramble about. Anyways...

On a happy note, John Cooper, lead singer of Skillet , recently become a father again! Him and his wife, Korey, are now the proud parents of a baby boy, Xavier! awww...so precious! I will not be surprised if their kids are deaf...all that screaming!

Here's where I'll pay some homage to the new job! Ah...I'm gonna enjoy this! "Everything in the store is $9.98 or less...We've got your back!"

If you haven't yet noticed, I'm having fun using the Google Image Search!

Okay so...I wanna take a trip! And I'm not meaning a piddly little trip! For some reason today I started thinking about an overseas trip. I really really really wanna go to Europe! I think the reason this came up was because I was thinking about how I've said alot that that is a place I would like to visit. Well, see...if I go it would have to be like right after graduation, b/c it's doubtful that I would be able to plan in something like that when I get into the world of 9-5...but who knows..so now I'm like all...like...I wanna go NOW! Who knows...anyone wanna come with me?!

Let's see what you all know about me, if you can answer the following questions correctly, I'll...I don't know...take ya out to eat..or at least Coldstone! Yum Yum!!

1. What is my eye color?

2. Where do I wanna visit before I die?

3. Name one of my guilty pleasures?

4. How many guys have I dated?

5. What about me, could be said is a 'miracle'?

..and on that note..I'll catch ya on the flipside!

DO YOU KNOW THE MUFFIN MAN?!?

To wonder...

2005-08-01T16:56:00.000-04:00

My mind wonders! about what you say? oh..many things.

This past weekend was colorguard clinic (both saturday and sunday..blah). So needless to say, I'm burnt. I'll admit it, I'm an idiot. I didn't realize it was going to be as hot as it was. I assumed since the weather was supposed to be almost degrees less from the usual that it wouldn't be so bad. I was wrong! it hurts! But I'm not throwing myself a pity party.

I'm continue to wonder about some of the ways I am. I know that God has made me the way I am for a reason, but I wonder..why? What kind of character do I possess? I mean...am I supposed to change, no..that's probably not right..am I supposed to use this or that quality..maybe not?! Who knows! My stubborn will, I'm sure I have that as a good thing and a bad thing...I guess learning when it's good and when it's not..would be first to figure out! I just cannot help myself! I find myself saying things or doing things that are the norm for me, and for my "qualities" I display...then five minutes later I feel like I need to be kicked in the butt for it. Am I cursed with a lover's heart? Am I cursed with blunt honesty? Am I cursed with a "real" personality?! I do not know, but I'd like to believe not. I just pray that God will show me what it is that He has for me, and the use for these qualities, as He sees fit. I feel so awkward, I feel so alone. I feel...forget it..

"...we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. and hope does not dissapoint us..." - Romans 5:3-5

Memory Meme

2005-07-27T21:32:00.000-04:00

Okay, Jason put me up to this, but what the hey...it's all in good fun right?!

Ten years ago: I was 11. The only worry I could have had was whether or not the boy in my art class liked me!?

Five years ago: I was 16. Just learning to drive...to be semi-independent, got my own job...made some ideas as to what i wanted to do with my life...man how that has changed!

One year ago: I was contemplating what God has planned for my life...still trying to figure that one out!

Yesterday: I went to work...watched tv...and went to bed early with a raging headache!

Today: I woke up early for work, and worked my first day at my 2nd job! wahoo for building jean cubes and t-shirt cubes!

Tomorrow: another full day of fun!

5 snacks I enjoy: yum, snacks!
1. fruit snacks
2. madarin oranges
3. baby corn with french dressing...and pepperoni...oh that's great!
4. gummy bears or cherries!
5. kettle corn popcorn

5 bands that I know the lyrics of most of their songs: oh this list could go on and on for like ever!
1. Falling Up
2. Skillet
3. Jennifer Knapp
4. Relient K
5. Kutless

5 things I would do with $100,000,000:
1. Get out of debt!!!!!!!!!
2. Pay off any family debts!
3. Give money to Fire Escape!
4. Give money to my local church!
5. Give money to cancer research!

5 locations I’d like to runaway to:
1. Paris
2. London
3. Jerusalem (okay so not right at this moment, but I definitely wanna go there someday)
4. California
5. Home!

5 bad habits I have:
1. Talk too much!
2. I have no will power when it comes to certain foods!
3. I have no will power when it comes to DVD buying! Right Kara?!
4. I burp...well, I belch..I can't help it..I have a gaseous stomach! at least it's burps!
5. I tend to interrupt people sometimes! I'm sorry!

5 things I like doing:
1. Writing
2. Talking
3. Reading
4. Sleeping
5. Listening to music!
**not necessarily in that order! :-)

5 things I would never wear (again):
1. bellbottoms
2. a tube top...at least not by itself!
3. bright orange jeans!
4. a skull cap
5. a ponytail on the side of my head!

5 TV shows I like:
1. CSI Season One
2. CSI Season Two
3. CSI Season Three
4. CSI Season Four
5. CSI Season Five

5 movies I like:
1. The Prince & Me
2. Little Women
3. Batman
4. Boondock Saints
5. The Notebook

5 famous people I’d like to meet:
1. President Bush
2. Abraham Lincoln
3. Paul the Apostle
4. Stephen the Martyer
5. Jesus...of course!

5 biggest joys at the moment:
1. reading...somewhat
2. watching movies
3. talking to friends
4. hanging out with friends
5. sleeping!

5 favorite toys:
I have NKOTB puzzles now!! other than that my only toy is my MP3 player!

Who's next?

I'll tag Kara, Alisha, and Lance.

Loss

2005-07-26T02:04:00.000-04:00

Loss for words, my sould does speak the volumes are endless and leak into the heart and soul of another to whom my speech is enthralled. Cries are silent but echo to extremes of hope, life, love and dreams that carry the burden of life unspoken, bottled, bruised, tormented and broken. Depths behold me and all there is, is a choice, to speak my mind, raise my voice, to hear the silence, see the scars, to display my heart, and allow it's weakness to be unveiled! To you my love!

2005-07-21T20:28:00.000-04:00

Okay so I ripped this off of kara (http://kwilt.blogspot.com) but she apparently ripped it off of her friend ashley, who ripped it off of her friend breann..so oh well! enjoy!

F I R S T
♥First best friend: Daniel and Gia, this girl and her brother that were my next door neighbors
♥First screen name: heavenly_fate
♥First teacher: Ms. Janie and Ms. Darlene
♥First action figure: does rainbow bright count?
♥Self-purchased album: probably the backstreet boys, back in the day!
♥First funeral: technical first was brother my grandmother's when i was 6 mos. old
♥First pets: hamsters: Feasty and Fiesty (yeah we were creative)
♥First piercing/tattoo: piercing: ears, tattoo: center of upper back
LASTS
♥Last car ride: home from work
♥Last good cry: I'm not sure if there is a such thing as a "good cry"
♥Last movie seen: at home: I've tried to watch King Arthur, the first one like 80 times...at theater: Fantastic Four
♥Last beverage drank: surprisingly...H2O
♥Last food consumed: gummie cherries
♥Last phone call: my mom
♥Last shoes worn: sneakers
♥Last item bought: Coldstone
♥Last annoyance: grr...it's too fresh to discuss
♥Last time wanting to die: the second tuesday of last week
S P E C I F I C S
♥Do you do drugs?: nope
♥What kind of shampoo do you use?: I like the dove shampoo
♥What are you most scared of?: failing
♥What are you listening to right now?: MTV...crap TV
♥How many buddies are online right now?: 38
F A V O R I T E S
♥Color: red
♥Food: all food in general, i'm not hard to please
♥Boy name: Caleb Michael
♥Girl name: Alexia Grace
♥Subjects in school: Math
♥Abbreviation: all of them, anything to kill the literacy of America is great!
♥Animals: kittens, puppies, hamsters..anything small and fluffy
♥Perfume: whatever smells pretty, I'm not too particular
H A V E Y O U E V E R
♥Given anyone a bath?: I'll go with a no on that one
♥Smoked?: no
♥Bungee jumped?: i did the sky coaster at king's dominion
♥Made yourself throw up?: I would weigh, way less if i did that...so umm...NO
♥Skinny dipped?:...well there was this one time...just kidding..No
♥Ever been in love?: yes I have
♥Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Nope.
♥Cried when someone died?: yes, I mean I do have a heart
♥Been rejected?: more than I like to recall
♥Rejected someone?: I think there was this one guy...
♥Done something you regret?: Yes
L A S T P E R S O N
♥You touched: I don't remember
♥Hugged: I think I gave Jess a hug last night
♥You IMed: Andrew
♥IMed you: Dave
♥Called you: Steve & Barry's
♥You called: Mom
♥Kissed: no-one
♥Bought you flowers: the boys on V-Day
W H I C H I S B E T T E R
♥Coke or Pepsi: Coke!
♥Flowers or candy: either or....the sentiment is wonderful
♥Tall or short: my height or taller, there is nothing wrong with a guy being the same height as the girl...
R A N D O M
♥In the morning I am: cranky and tired...not a morning person
♥All I need is: I'll go with Kara...love..."all you need is love"
♥Love is: "like oxygen"
♥I dream about: everything
♥What do you notice first: what lies underneath the facial expression
♥Last person you danced with: sadly, probably someone from prom like 3 years ago or something.
♥Makes you smile: happy things
♥Who has a crush on you: no-one...unless i'm lucky and he likes me back *wink* *wink*
D O Y O U E V E R
♥Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no, I like being a girl!
♥Wish you were younger: nah
N U M B E R
♥Of times I have had my heart broken: a thought I don't like to recall
♥Of hearts I have broken: I doubt any..but if i had to wager...maybe one
♥Of continents I have lived in: 1
♥Of CD's I own: I think I surpassed the 100 mark
♥Of scars on body: only a few

that took a long time and I was only halfway paying attention!

How about this?!

2005-07-21T16:26:00.000-04:00

alright people! Let me just tell ya'...everything seems to be working together so well right now..so far...truly amazing! Thank You God!! I mean I finally situated my "situation" over graduate school, which I am super excited about. and then I got the new job that I already posted about, and there was informal interview about an internship next Spring, and if you know the end result of the "situation" for grad school, you'd know why I'm super pumped about that as well! :-) It's just great!

Lance,...this next part is for you!!
I've been touching base on a lot of new music lately and checking out the sounds of various bands and giving my ears lots of amazing listenings. So I'll just give ya' my opinions! 1st and foremost...www.radiou.com is amazing..I don't know if you all listening to them, but truly ahhhmazing. Too bad I can only get the internet version..darn you Ohio! Anyways, Falling Up's new CD comes out in November, I think!! Their new single "Exit Calypson"...awesome! I suggest it to anyone! Also discovered a band called April Sixth...I've only heard the song "Dear Angel", but let me tell...you I love it!! House of Heroes is good too...Kara and I were discussing the similarities between their sound and Chemical Romance, I suggest "Serial Sleepers" for your listening pleasure! I also got to listen to Spoken's "Promise" which I haven't heard in like forever, I forgot about this band and I hate myself for it! Truly great! I've listened to some new stuff from Haste the Day, Thousand Foot Krutch, John Reuben (Nuisance is wonderful), Switchfoot, and Flyleaf. A few other newbies I've heard lately were Sides of the North "Melody"....I really like this song if someone could send me a copy of it, that would be great, also Plumb's "I Can't Do This"...the similarity between the lead singer's voice and Amy Lee from Evanescance is weird, odd too the singer's name is Tiffany Lee? Could there be a relation..who knows! I just theorize! Alright enough of that, it's just been so long since I was able to go psycho over the music....I LOVE IT!!! :-)

In other parts of my life! I believe I'm going insane...I just and starting to hate it! No the insanity is not because of boredom or anything of that sort. Instead...I'm being a girl. oooohhh...wellll!

Good joke for those who haven't heard it and wanna hear it!...later yo!

What the freak?!

2005-07-18T18:50:00.000-04:00

Don't ask where that outburst came from!

So let me tell ya'...hold on, lost my train of thought. Oh yeah..this weekend..I got a letter in the mail saying I'd been randomly selected, "randomly selected for what?" you say...none other than..JURY DUTY! What the freak!! Okay so that's where the outburst came from, let me just tell ya, I don't have time for this. So if anyone knows anyway I can get out of it, I'm willing to hear my options. I heard that I could get out of it, just b/c I'm a student..that would be great & convenient!

In other news, I'm "thoughtfully considering", or at least that's the way I've addressed my e-mails to people, graduate studies! Wahoo for more time at college! Yeah right...I'm about to go insane, but hey I need to weigh my options. Either way I'll be poor!

Kara doesn't think I could be a fashion merchandiser, let me just say, I WILL NOT be working for Gucci or Versace. Not that hoity-toity fashion next-top-model crap. Geeze, I have taste! Anyways..I have never even really thought about fashion merchandising, that is until now..hmmm..I'll let my thoughts process for a while.

OH wow, I just got a call from Steve & Barry's...I got the job! YESSS!!!! So you are the first to know, don't you feel lucky. On that note...I must depart for the day, maybe I'll check back later.

*Catch ya' on the flipside*

Recollection!

2005-07-12T00:46:00.000-04:00

I wrote the following about 7 months ago...I recall it now as I process my thoughts on a variety of things. I feel the necessity to remember a previous moment in which I feel is similar to my current 'season'! I hope that in some way it is able to speak volumes...

from the depths my weakness cries out for an ear to hear it's voice. this inner being desires more than what this life can offer...I watch and wait with what little patience I possess and wonder what is left to this journey. silent cries, lost tears, nothing left but lonliness and isolation. so what is it this time? from here to there, each place, each step, all striving to further some unknown void, to possess some unknown or unspoken quality or life that just doesn't exist. it's all meaningless and never ceasing. so why, what...all the questions life has to offer, all that rears it's ugliness into this existence of mine. who can hear my cries, who can understand my pleas, who knows the inner most being that is me? these questions never cease. i lie here for hours and hours and continue to question all that is imaginable. from the inner most pains and struggles to nothing. what? why? where? I mean how is it that it all exist in me without me understanding or even relating any reasoning to it. my depths of solitude are only seen by Him alone. He only knows all that my life entails. is it true that all that is me, all that will be me and all that was me, He's known all along? what matter of character do I possess to find my gifts from God? He is my Almighty Comforter at all times. to know that his love is all I'll ever need...simply amazing. "You are the light of the world, Jesus is the light, lead us out of darkness and into Your marvelous light." my mind is a paradox even to me! how is it that these complexities can somehow piece themselves together and form a masterpiece? How is it that I can be seen in such a light by the One who created all! I cry to you Oh Lord! You know my heart, You know the desires therein. the affliction that sometimes haunts my very being, those that shoot so far to my core that I feel the piercing pain of needles killing and blinding my existence. my eyes are closed to what you have for me. Open them, Oh Lord. Open my heart to all You have for me. To all You believe there is for my life. these thoughts burn in for an eager mind to find out more, to acquire as much knowledge as I can to try to undersand and piece together whatever it is that tears at my flesh and soul. why in a room so full can I see myself alone. i stand out in a crowd, but not such to draw attention. i envision for myself....i do not even know. life is in such a short time, supposedly, such a great adventure. i just wonder what this adventure is? where am I to go, with whom, by whom? love is generally my passion in life. love is one that never ceases. God's love is what brings me through all and brings me to all. God, praise You Lord, for all the blessings you've bestowed upon me, I praise You for everything that lies in me, whether simple or complex. I know that there exist many such things in myself and my life that I will never understand until Your time to reveal that to me. Your passionate comfort is that strong fire that warms me in the coldest of winters. where is it that You'll lead me,...nowhere Your fires will not warm me, this i know. You make all things beautiful in Your time. YOUR TIME!! To have just a slight glimpse into Your time and existence is beyond my comprehension. so what can You do, that I can truly understand. My attempts, though strong and unwavering, are useless, for You are HOLY! You alone possess the only wisdom that can even finish this sentence...My thoughts do not cease, but my words faint.To know You my love.To hear You my love.To hold You my love.The desires of my heart are these. All I have to say.

Emphasis Necessary!

2005-07-10T23:20:00.000-04:00

ISAIAH 61:1-3

"The Spirit of the Soverign Lord is on me because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives, and release from darkenss for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor and the day of vendeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion -- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called mighty oaks, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."

Childhood Memories

2005-07-06T14:11:00.000-04:00

Ah, the joys of childhood, oh how we remember them all! This is in response to Jason's "5 Childhood Memories" post (http://leftcheek.blogspot.com). Props to him by the way!

Childhood Memories, in no particular order:

1. Feathered Bangs! Let's just say, ladies...what were we thinking? I look back now and for some reason I can remember thinking that feathered bangs were the greatest thing in the world, I mean the possibilities were endless with hairdos. Although embarassment is slight when these are brought back to memory, laughter ensues on my part. I cannot help but laugh at myself.

2. Double-Layered Socks! I luckily, wasn't a hardcore victim of this craze, but still, older sister!! But, I did happen to adore my multi-colored socks. I thought it was just great to have pink socks and blue socks and all sorts of colors, and sadly I have the pictures to prove it!

3. New Kids on the Block! Let me just tell you, I adored NKOTB. They were definitely the greatest thing since sliced bread! I had the dolls and the covers, oh geeze...I was in love with these guys...too bad they broke up. I'm waiting for the reunion! :-)

4. Easy Bake Oven & Woodburning Kit! I loved my Easy Bake Oven! Yes Jason, cooking by a lightbulb was the greatest invention ever! My sister's woodburning kit was great too, and still I don't understand, unsafe toys...I mean seriously, you gave a child a metal rod that heated to 5000 degrees and let them run free with it...hey I had fun!

5. 80's Movies! Kara, this one is for you! The Breakfast Club, Footloose...oh the list goes on and on and never gets old to me! I love them all! Only one thing left to say...Teen Witch comes out on DVD on July 12!!! :-)

Well I hope this has amused you, at least in the slightest of terms...cause I know it's made me laugh...more later yo!

Destiny><>

frontline...

2005-07-04T19:34:00.000-04:00

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!

Sorry, I just wanted to celebrate! So what's up?! Umm...let's see...I ran today, for a complete total of 15 minutes...needless to say, running isn't for me. Still to this day, I will never understand why people run because they "enjoy" it?! Just doesn't make sense. Oh well!

I think my boredom that I've endured for the past couple of months is calling upon some enlightenment, just a moment. Maybe such knowledge makes me feel less stagnant and more usable to society.

This beautiful day makes me wonder what I am doing in here typing on this blog, oh yeah...I just remembered....heat is the devil!...okay so I didn't mean that. I do wish I could enjoy the beauty of the sun, I love it, it's beautiful, but it hurts me! :-(

My mind wanders into an abyss of nothingness as my soul searches for answers to questions that continue to prod at my heart. This fear inside I've bured so deep and put aside so long, has now decided to face existence and try to break my stronghold on this confounded world I live in. I weaken and feel myself falling further into the despair that binds me. I have no understanding of how to relieve myself from these fears that continually ache in my existence. I cry to You Lord Jesus, take them away! All I have is You and You are all I need in this life. Close these open wounds, never to be revealed again and calm my aching soul. I cannot even pretend to fathom the awesome power that is the God, Lord of all...yet I pray for this power to work in me. For now my soul so weary, my heart bleeding slowly, rests in the hands of the Lord.

Destiny><>

eh, who knows....

2005-07-01T01:31:00.000-04:00

alright people...not sure exactly what I'm gonna say, but I've been hackled to post more (just kidding). Anyways...first off, Dan....badonkadonk....female booty, please never again refer to your own rear end by using that word. :-)

I put this picture in here to illustrate a few things. #1...my sister and I do get along, #2...feathering your bangs is never a good idea, and #3 old times. This picture is a terrible one of my sister, myself in the middle and my cousin. See I don't have many of these pictures. "these pictures" are ones of my family, and especially my cousin. She passed away about 5 years ago. As I set here I wonder what happened to the time that has passed, the memories shared, do they begin to fade. There are times when it seems the only memories of particular people in my life, are either brief glimpses into their lives, their pain, or of remembrance of the pain endured after they were gone. I do not understand it myself. It is true, you do not know what you've got, until it's gone.

"these mysterious inabilities to create the mass chaos in this unfound world of the mundane alludes to the only thing that holds this inept life together" - (04-25-05)

Another topic of discussion......at bible study tonight we breifly discussed that when we chose God, we realized, that there isn't anyone else to lead us! Plainly, there is no other choice. Now thinking about this, we went on to discuss how we felt when we saw those around us who turned to God, suddenly turn away. It breaks my heart to recall those lives that seemed so adamant on following the Lord, yielding to their own desires of the flesh. I have moments where I wonder about my own faith, God why don't I just give up! and tonight while thinking about it, I pondered the thought of life differently, so to speak. I cannot understand it, it does not makes sense for me to turn my back on Him. That's when I realized that God had engraved my faith, my belief, into my very being. I rejoice at this! Oh Lord, to know that you have given me an adamant faith that is stubbornly unyielding to the desires of this world...Thank You! I praise You for that strength.

Lastly, this is just a short "original":

this body, is lying lame before you
bruised and broken
hungered for Your touch
my movement ceases as I am in awe of You

upon this altar i lay it all down
Your fire consumes my entire being
Every aspect of my life is held before You

refine me, reveal my quality in You

burn into the depths of my soul
setting ablaze all that is me
Lord pierce my barriers
open my heart to Your peace

Destiny><>

An original....

2005-06-22T01:21:00.000-04:00

I'm finally allowing my artistic side to take a stab at any comments, feel free to let me hear what you think.

untitled**

The shadows fall in and my life becomes a transparent glitch in this recluse. I focus on this dim, yet glorified speck of light in the distance, guiding my every step. Every fowl unknown makes its way toward my existence, but all I see is this glowing ember calling me closer. Lord, call me closer!

Destiny><>

whatever...

2005-06-21T01:13:00.000-04:00

Hey ya'll...so it's been a bit now hasn't it since my last post. well, let's see what is up with me! So i've been looking for a second job, quote..."second job", only to find failure in my job search. so no-one wants to hire me, I just pray that this is not a sign of what is to come. Anyways, so yeah other than that I've just been working and chilling.

I've managed to see 5 movies since school let out and I've read 6 books, and worked on like 2 art projects. So you'd think I was busy, nope pretty much bored out of my skull. but it's okay, i'm keeping my thoughts to what is ahead....hehe...my mind wanders....ahhhh

Oh my friends, how I love you all....take care

Destiny><>

Compassion does not require understanding...

2005-05-29T22:27:00.000-04:00

Well hello! There has been a lot that has intruded my thoughts since the last post. Let me update you first on my whereabouts...I am currently at home with my family, spending a wonderful holiday weekend with them! How precious?! I have spent these two days at the races watching what I watched for the first almost 17 years of my life. I realized a lot though being there, one thing was that I don't fit in (which isn't as sad, it's just lonely), another thing was that although I am 21, so many people do not see me as being 21. I guess growing up in that environment around those particular people, I'm always gonna be seen as so-and-so's daughter, or so-and-so's little sister. It just get's tiring at times I suppose. The last thing I realized, which was just a consistent relapse in my mind was...."garbage in, garbage out". I just wish to be salt and light to a world that is bland and dark.
The title of this post pertains to something that has been on my mind for a good week or so. I realized the other night while I was laying in bed thinking, that compassion does not require understanding. Let me explain! Example: There is a child that is dieing of AIDS in Africa. As a compassionate human being, you feel for this child and have that compassion for them, because they are in the situation they are in. You hurt for them. But this hurt and compassion that you feel for them, does not come from understanding how they got to be in the situation they are in, it's just a natural reaction of a compassionate person to feel compassion for someone going through such turmoil. It's not a necessity to understand how they got into that situation and why they are in that situation or for another matter, why they are upset about being in that situation. You just feel and hurt for them, because they hurt themselves. This has recently hit home with me, because of personal experiences in my life. *this is too much to go into detail*
Well, I hope my slight enlightenment didn't annoy anyone or whatever...I'm sure you aren't reading them anyways.
I'll just remove my mind to a happy thought...:-D

Ah, the beginning of a consistent lapse of sanity...

2005-05-25T20:28:00.000-04:00

So I joined the bandwagon of mindless creatures that decide to pen their thoughts online. Actually calling them mindless is inaccurate on my part, for there minds are in full view to the rest of this internet world.

This summer is beginning to drive me insane. With as much idle time to drive even the laziest individual insane, I cannot help but wonder what I am doing with my life?! I guess all will be revealed in patient time, or so I hope. My excess of time though is allowing for a lot of refreshing my soul in various areas. I have been able to dutifully delve deeper into the art of journaling, but at the same time finding myself in a black hole of writer's block. I hate it!

In the past 3 weeks I have been able to read 5 books I have had on my shelf for awhile. That makes me happy, and I continue to read the books that are piling up. I feel that somehow I am expanding my knowledge and my brain is getting a workout to be able to escape into the books I read. I wonder how my life would sound if I was a character in a novel? hmm...interesting thought I say.
I'm finding God is glorious in his preparations for my future these weeks. Being taught a lot lately on my own frailties and faults. It really is tough to face yourself sometimes. but being reminded that all is for the sake of character, engraved my the Lord of Heavens...brings a smile to my face.

My fears are attacking me, as I have found out a few weeks ago about the internship that seemed to be a salvation for career purposes, was not going as well I had hoped for it to turn. however, I was informed to keep in contact, I quote "he really wants to hire you, just give him time to figure out the situation at hand"...still i've left with an uneasy feeling that things just aren't going to turn out how I would hope they would. The saddest part is that my current employment is driving me to my wit's end. I pray that Jesus will give me the patience and strength to endure to the end, however far away that end may be. On a lighter, somewhat humorous, somewhat shameful note....I got a call from the DQ out here today. They want to hire me to work out here on the extra time I have, how precious, but then I wonder if I made the right choice by going back there...on top of having to swallow my pride and do it, I at the same time am forfeiting a lot of time that otherwise could be spent...doing...ummm...well...i'm not doing anything, but what if something comes up?? OK, OK...excuses I know...so if i get it, i'll try it out and see what happens, I just hope the loyalty factor doesn't fall into place...I'm weak!!

Well, I've officially made my first posting way too long for anyone to read, cause I can almost guarantee that barely anyone will read it, but hey...humor me, huh!!

Destiny<><