The latest...

The latest and it was two days in the making (you'd think it would be better, but hey i like it)...

Let my tears run through this river of devotion
as eagerly I await the dawning of a notion
to unveil the beauty that lies beneath the scars
and surface the reality of the stars
so distant and bright within the night
radiating an unseen perfection
in each and every light
and through this night, I shine so bright
revealing all the glory above
magnifying nothing but love, till morning dawns
and the sun stands still to brighten the
river's cascading fill and show hope, reveal
glory, the Creator's magnificent perfection
revealed in fullness before Thee. and to Thee
give thanks for solace and despair, where
tears are bottled in the fill of thee who cares.

.d.

old-school?

alright kids, i found this on my old xanga site...i hope it's somewhat entertaining to you all

'I give up on this cruel and heartless world
all that stands before me now is this vast openness
this quiet array of scarlet pores
that holds nothing but bitter remorse
for all this world has is nothing to give me
this heart is broken and bleeding from within
a lonely heart tells many a story
of days lost but not forgotten
tears drop as consistent as rain in the morning
and cleansing comes from within'

.d.

Bradley Hathaway is amazing!!

it's truth..check it out for yourself:

Bradley Hathaway's MySpace

"I Am A Manly Man"

Ramblings

according to http://www.answers.com, disconfirmation bias refers to the tendency for people to extend critical scrutiny to information which contradicts their prior beliefs and accept uncritically information that is congruent with their prior beliefs.

I believe we are all guilty of this. We all look to information to confirm our beliefs and thoughts on anything and everything, but the minute something comes into the flow that could possibly negate what we think...what do we do?! we call it absurd, on in the slightest regard we justify it...we turn it around to being positive remarks toward our 'prior belief'.

my motto: assume nothing until it is confirmed...the fault in this theory; however, is the lack of faith...in order to truly embrace a concept, we must have faith in it's existence...that turns me around to faith...faith is "the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen."...what stands out to me...'substance of things hoped for.'...hope...what is that...it's a desire...a forethought, so to speak, of what's expected to be fulfilled...so in an essence our hope is our belief. so does that come around full circle...in believing, we attempt to confirm that which we believe, yet in relying upon confirmation, we leave out faith with is important in establishing what you do believe, and part of faith is hoping...hoping for something with great expectation of it's fulfillment or a belief...so do we believe in a hopeful faith-induced expectation?

what do we believe?

oh the ramblings of my mind...

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I ponder myself...my own inadequecies...my downfalls. Why? Why are insecurities present in a heart that seems so confident? LORD, I do not understand my own thoughts and the why's and how's of my life...I believe the confusion...leaves me confused?! I long for answers, yet I fear them. I long for movement, yet I fear loss of comfort. I long for difference, yet the same is so familiar. How do I contradict myself! How do I battle myself and You are the same time. I long to obey You, yet my being struggles. Wants, desires, beliefs, passions...these are what stir the being into action. Why do I feel so immobile and sedentary?? My heart aches as I feel that pain is my allie. Oh sweet love, rescue me from this misery, hold me in Your gentle comfort, soothe me with Your whispers of grace...Oh how I long...all, everything more...

"Nobody moves me like You"

Hi guys!!

So let me tell you what's up! Lately I have been a little cranky, my apologies to those who have endured it! I just don'tknow what's up!

Anyways, but to let everyone in on the good news...I have an interview next Friday in Pittsburgh with Target. I'm super excited about this. So yeah pray for me, cause this would be super great.

Later people!

.d.

A Consistent Lapse of Sanity...again!

So what's up! First off, props to those that tried my quiz, and boo to ya'll that didn't! It really wasn't that hard! :-)

So lately, it's been whoa...first off, there was this massive blizzard, which was like ahhmazing. It was actually pretty cool, until the trees started falling and breaking everywhere, and the people started skidding into ditches and then everyone was at a loss of power. I mean what?! Actually today I didn't have any power for a period of like 7 hours..it about drove me nuts. But the funny part was getting everything situated, I mean I was trying to figure out what we were gonna do with the food and where I was gonna get warmth, and it was just kind of entertaining. Then it was like..boom...we have power again! AWESOME! They, the electric company that is, told us it would be out until probably noon on Friday, so pretty sweet!

Other than that, I've been nonchalantly doing things. Which sucks, I'm not really enthralled in anything right now! This kind of irritates me. Mainly because it makes me think and wonder about things that I do not wanna think and wonder about...things that I've thought and wondered about for months and I really don't wanna let my mind roll around the ideas and thoughts of them, b/c they just drive me insane! I mean seriously, what?! but I don't know. I mean I just don't understand some things and some people, and I know I'm probably not supposed to or something like that, but I guess when part of me is in anyway involved in it, I tend to take it personally. (btw, in case you are wondering what this rant is about, do not assume someone has done something to tick me off or put me in the middle of some fiasco or something of sorts, this is not the case...just a case of...emotional breaking...or maybe just...hitting the wall that's barriered up, oh how I want to climb it). Anyways, on that note, I'm gonna go...get warm and get food...I'm hungry!!

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Do You Really Know Me??

It's quiz time, my friends.

Do you really know me? Here's some important and not-so-important questions pertaining to myself, that I would like to evaluate my friends and see how much you really know me. hmm...interesting!

1. What is my middle name?

2. what color is my eyes? Is there something significant about one of them? (asking this question would imply that there is, but do you know what it is?!)

3. how many brothers and/or sisters do I have?

4. what is my favorite cheesy saying? **you should know this**

5. who is one of my favorite male vocalist?

6. what is my favorite part of the music I listen to?

7. what would be the ideal job, in my eyes?

8. what would be my freak-show talent?

9. what is my favorite tv show?

10. what is one of my current favorite movies? (if you name one of the many, you still get the
credit...yeah i'm just that nice)

11. what is something I enjoy doing that not everyone knows about me? *oooh...tough one...it
isn't really*

12. what is my favorite food?

13. who/what is my passion in life?

14. what country do I really really really really wanna visit?

and lastly,...

15. what is something of mine, that I wish everyone could see?

Good luck people!

D.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G

I just wanted to relay a story to ya'll, b/c it absolutely shocks me! So, Jess Poe and I were hanging out last night, which I would have to say was absolutely amazing! b/c Jess Poe is just an amazing girl! ;-) Anyways...so we were hanging out and we decided to drive around town and just talk. We were at the four intersection on patteson, in front of the coliseum and the light turned green, so I started to go forward, and then suddenly...this car like comes upon my rear and rams into the back of my car. I was like oh my gosh, as our bodies like flung forward. I kind of spazzed out. So i went straight into the coliseum and sadly the guy who hit me did not. so i parked the car, still shaken and was just like sort of in a frantic mess..and jess was like it's okay it's okay..everything will be okay. So after we calmed down we decided to assess the damage. When we looked at the back bumper of my car, both of our jaws just dropped. There was nothing wrong with the rear end of my car. minus maybe like the smallest fraction of a scratch on my bumper, that was it. I looked at her and was like "you did feel that right?! I'm not just making it up." Jess was like yeah, he hit you pretty hard, i don't know why your car is not damaged. it was way weird, we just stood there for like 20 minutes and was like 'huh!'. it was really strange...but thank God..I mean seriously praise Jesus, cause that is the only explanation I can come up with.

D.

Past originals!

The following are, of course, not yet titled:

(08-04-05)
A vast openness before me,
calling my name into the wild, untamed terrain.
Who is to be my voice in this space
that is too large for me to be heard?
How am I to know the way to go?
Everything looks so settled, unconsumed, untouched.
My Lord, You will show me the way
through this wooded abyss that
will not devour my soul.

(08-08-05)
The grip of passion instills in me a
desire to be filled by You.
The pierces, bruises, open sores that
bear a resemblance to life anew.
Anguish, pain, this all surround me entirely,...
To the extent of loss of hope? NEVER!
Enduring, believing, all that You have for me,...
Do otherwise? How could I ever!
You hold the barriers that shape
the romance of my life.
All in Your hands...the love, the happiness, the anger, and the strife.
Help me feel Your Presence near me!



.D.